I'm running a marathon on Sunday.
I've not run since I was in school.
My training for the Brighton Marathon 2026 for Bowel Research UK has been about Stephanie. Talking about her and keeping her memory alive. Doing something that has put me out of my comfort zone, focusing my grief into something positive. There’s been no support out there since her death, not even in the early days, other than waiting lists or private counselling for trauma.
Stephanie’s death in October 2024 hit us out the blue. There was no warning, no expectation of a shorter life expectancy only the constant worry and fear of who would take those battles on when we were gone.
There is a strange sense of relief that we no longer have to worry about that anymore but also a sense of guilt that we feel that way.
I’m not sure what I’m going to do with myself after Sunday when the marathon is over. I can’t promise I won’t do another one, but we’ll never stop talking about Stephanie.
She taught us so much about unconditional love, patience and kindness.
So many of our friends who have supported us through the past 18 months never met Stephanie but talk about her with us and have got to know her through us.
So with 4 days to go, I’m tapering my runs, carb loading, hydrating, getting in as much sleep and rest as I can and looking forward to do just doing my best on the day. Getting round the 26.2 miles without complaining, having fun, enjoying the atmosphere and taking it all in.
I’m not sure how proud of me Stephanie would be. I’m not sure half the time Stephanie knew who I was. But I do know Stephanie loved to be out, loved her food and drink, loved being with people, loved going for a walk and loved making as much noise as she could and all without a care in the world.
Good luck with the marathon! It sounds like you are doing all the right things with carb loading and staying hydrated. You will smash it!! Sending massive love and hugs.
ReplyDeleteWishing you all the best of luck with your marathon tomorrow. You're doing Stephanie proud, whether she would have known it or not and you're definitely honouring Stephanie's love for being out and going for a walk. So important to keeping sharing your memories of her and helping to raise awareness and funding for Bowel Research UK. You're doing an amazing job and I hope all goes well tomorrow x
ReplyDeleteIt's Sunday and you will probably be running as I write this so yes, I'm thinking of you and wishing you well. I hope you get the chance for a nice warm bath afterwards. I think what you are doing is a fantastic way of remembering Stephanie. I love all your photos of her this week. Sending love and strength your way x
ReplyDeleteI hope the marathon goes/went well today! What a lovely way to remember your special Stephanie!
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