The negatives
We can't control how other people understand our grief and so obviously feel we should just be getting on with our lives now. We are getting on with our lives. If I could explain how Stephanie's death has affected us physically and mentally then I would write it down and share it with you.
The positives
Back running and feeling good, it really helps when I'm struggling and September is a hard month for us as we count down to the anniversary of Stephanie's death in October.
Saturday 29 August A long tiring and emotional day and a situation I chose to walk away from realising nothing I could say or do would make any difference. Had a good couple of hours first thing with the grandchildren saying our goodbyes, with grandson now in school and there only being the school holidays of which mine don't line up and him going away, I won't be seeing them again until probably the Whitsun week. They all left for a party at 9.30am and I spent the morning after packing up the van catching up with some work, after lunch I headed out for a coffee, then into town for a couple of hours and to do some shopping, followed by a stop at the retail park for some dinner, another coffee and to kill the last hour before filling up with fuel and a 7.30pm check in. Followed by some more work and phone calls with hubby and my friend. I didn't get much sleep and I've had a long and emotional day.
Sunday 30 A long drive home after minimal sleep, getting home at 10.30am after a quick stop for a drive through Starbucks.Peter helped me to unpack the van, washing machine on and I went to bed for a couple of hours. We popped out for a bit of shopping and a coffee. I put together a couple of parcels and some cards and reactivated my Vinted account and sold a couple of things within minutes. I need the money after my recent fines from the car tax and parking ticket that due to the wrong address escalated. Popped out several times late afternoon between rain storms to get parcels sent and uploaded more items. Had an early night after a long soak in the bath.
Monday 31st August woke around 7am and made myself a cup of tea and laid in bed for an hour before deciding I needed to get on with the day and went out early to get some cards and photos printed and pick up a gift. home and collected Peter and we had a coffee in town and I picked up the final things I need for posting to Australia for child 3 and his girlfriend for her birthday and a few other treats. Peter drove home and I set off over the hills, running and walking a 10k route home. Tided up the dining room while Peter did the ironing and I put the boxes together as well as a couple more Vinted orders and got y work bag ready for the morning. Had a bath, dinner and bed by 10pm.
Tuesday 1st September Back to school. Nice to be back in a routine, even though it was a full day of training and lovely to catch up with people again. Didn't feel like it had been 6 weeks. Straight home, swopped bags and Peter dropped me at the station for the train to Birmingham for the game against Southampton. I video called my former student from the match to help her with a question for Uni and she watched a bit of the game with me. It ended 1 all, we should've won. The train was delayed and I got back home via Peter collecting me in Worcester, around midnight. A quick bath and straight to bed.
Wednesday 2nd Struggled to get out of bed. Peter took the van for a service and I went to work, on my feet all day and hardly got to it down, but a productive day. Home, changed and off for annual check up at the dentist. Went for a run, then to the gym for legs, bums and tums. Peter collected me and we got accommodation booked for 2 upcoming trips to London.
Thursday 3rd Work was hectic but the first week back usually is. Drove home via the post office and the doctors for my B12 jab. I had a lie down for an hour, cooked dinner, did some dusting and sorted out some work files whilst watching the TV and got granddaughters early birthday presents sorted. video call with grandson to hear all about carpet time this week in school. I obnvoulsy knew what it was but he was excited to find out all about it. In bed by 9pm.
Friday 4th Peter dropped me at work and the day went quickly, as I spent most of it hidden in the library. I had a one to one student for 2 lessons, followed by 1 lesson on paperwork, a final sort of the school uniform cupboard so we now have one that is clean and tidy and accessible and then a check in with year 11's after they collected their mock GCSE results. Peter collected me and we spent the evening with our grandchildren. We had dinner and got home at 10pm and straight to bed.
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