Work is so depressing. I've carried on doing my job to the full despite knowing they're not renewing my contract. They said they were looking at alternative ways for September but my students keep asking me what will happen and no answers are forthcoming.
It was 8 years on Friday since my father died, it triggered an emotion linked to Stephanie, as both deaths were sudden, traumatic and I was a witness to them both.
I put off gall bladder surgery earlier this year as Stephanie died in the operating theatre, it's now something I have to face after being in hospital last weekend. I have investigations booked for Tuesday next week and the following week an appointment with the surgeon. All on the NHS, it's moving that quickly.
Day 188
Work ok as it can be as I only have two weeks left. Into town to meet Peter for a coffee, had cereal for dinner, a bath and in bed by 9pm I was exhausted.
Day 189
A lie in as I didn't have to be at my interview until 9am. Back into work for first break. I left my ID documents at home so popped back in after work. I've been feeling really despondent over the past few days, maybe because I need surgery, maybe because I've only 2 weeks left in the job I love and maybe because I'm going through the interviewing process. Home to sort some paperwork, dinner, bath and an early night.
Day 190
I'm in such a sad mode at the moment with work, gall bladder surgery, thinking about Stephanie. I stopped in town for a coffee and to buy some end of term gifts for my students. Home and busied myself with dusting and tidying for a couple of hours. Had a bath and went to bed at 9pm. Showing our granddaughter how tall the sunflowers are.
I'm in such a sad mode at the moment with work, gall bladder surgery, thinking about Stephanie. I stopped in town for a coffee and to buy some end of term gifts for my students. Home and busied myself with dusting and tidying for a couple of hours. Had a bath and went to bed at 9pm. Showing our granddaughter how tall the sunflowers are.
Day 191
I was really upset in work today. Found out the plans for my students next year, which don't include me. Also didn't get the new job I applied for and now have to look further afield. One of students arranged a little leaving party with snack, decorations and balloons which was lovely. . Spent the evening cleaning the extension and rearranging the furniture, it had become a bit of a dumping ground and is now a nice relaxing room again. Didn't get to bed till midnight after packing my bags, filling the water tank in the van and putting it on charge.
Day 192
After work I drove down to the Forest of Dean where I'm camping for one night. I set the van up, made dinner then took a 30 minute walk in the heat down to Lydney Docks to meet DIL and grandchildren for a couple of hours. Lift back to the van, washed up, chatted with my neighbours. Read my book and went to sleep when it got dark.
Day 193
Early morning wake up from the birds, lay in bed reading and drinking tea. Packed up by 10am and off to fetch mum to take her to Monmouth for a couple of hours. After dropping her off, I was back to Monmouth where I'm camping on a friend's drive for another night as we went out for dinner. Home by 9pm and an early night in the van.
Day 194
Woke around 5am as I tend to do when we're camping as it's when the birds start singing, drifted back to sleep. Friend's daughter came out with a cup of tea at 8am after her and her brother had written themselves a note to remind them in the morning. We chatted and chilled till mid morning then went into town for a coffee. I packed up and left at 1pm getting home just after 2pm. I picked Peter up and went for a coffee. It was too hot to be outside and Peter had to come and help me empty the waste water from the van. Rest of the evening spent in the extension reading and blogging.
Things to make you smile:
Note from friend's children, gift from a student at school.
Things that made me happy:
Remembering to order son's new football top and it arriving before our trip to Australia. Time with the grandchildren and friends, camping.
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