In fact everything is irritating me right now. The weather, the permanent grey skies, the drive to work with all the potholes, the flooding and the road works.
I'm behind with my running and training for the Brighton Marathon and it's all got on top of me. Combine this with stopping smoking and putting all my focus into that. I've not been in the best headspace.
But there is a sliver of hope. The ill health is short lived. I've applied for 2 new jobs. Spring is only round the corner. Stopping smoking will help me with the running of the Brighton Marathon on the Day. I've just got to stop deal with what is going on now, be thankful for what is to come and just get on with it.
Easier said than done sometimes.
I dragged myself out of bed on Sunday afternoon had a deep, hot bubble bath. Got dressed and went out for a coffee.
On Monday I treated myself to some flowers.
On Tuesday I applied for some new jobs. I cannot fault the support I receive but it is very stressful and I just don't need that level of stress in my life anymore.
On Wednesday I went for a walk.
Thursday, I'm off to the gym.
Peter helps me out in the week by washing my cup and preparing my coffee in the mornings and taking the car off charge so I can leave on time for work.
It does make things easier when you have someone to help you and it does make things easier when you're not so hard on yourself.
It sounds like you are dealing with a lot but I am glad you have found some slivers of hope, I hope you are feeling a bit better now. Good luck with the job hunting and try not to be so hard on yourself.
ReplyDeleteI felt similar this week but like you I've reminded myself that it's all temporary. I love that you have done some nice things for yourself and taken proactive steps to get another job. Sometimes we have to start where we are and tackle one thing at a time and it sounds like you have made a brilliant start. Good luck with the job applications and the marathon.
ReplyDeleteYou definitely sound like you have a lot on your plate. I was just chatting with my sister about the time I decided to quit my teaching job. It's mentally draining when you know you dont enjoy it and dont want to be there. I hope you find something that you love soon. We all could do with much less stress in our lives. Hope next week is brighter on all fronts.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear that you were unwell over the weekend and the start of the week and that work and other things are a struggle. Hope that the arrival of spring will help you feel better and good luck with the job applications. Glad that Peter helps makes things easier for you in the mornings – it does make a difference having someone else helping you and not being hard on yourself is good too. Hope that this week will be an easier week for you. #WotW
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear you were unwell but it's good to look for the little things that help. What a helpful husband you have, sometimes it's the little things that mean the most. You might think that stopping smoking is affecting your mood but that's not true. Smoking has no effect on your mood, but the habit is so hard to break, it's breaking the habit that isn't helping. Once you get to a certain point you won't look back. I haven't smoked for over 20 years now, it wasn't easy stopping but it's so easy now and urgh, I can still smell a smoker from a mile away! You are doing great!
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