Word of the week - Missing

I spent 2 days on the case of the missing pants and socks.

I was down to the last few pairs of underwear and put a wash on, then due to the lovely weather we'd been having, got enough stuff together to put another wash on 2 days later for a particular pair of knickers to wear with my white trousers. Then along with a couple of t shirts they went in the tumble dryer with some socks to dry whilst the rest went on the line over night and after that, they went missing. 

They turned up this morning, back in the laundry basket, all of it. How or why it got back there I just don't know.

Car keys - they've been missing on and off all week. I'm blaming this on the fact we've been swopping vehicles. Normally I take the car to work and it's keyless, so they just live in the bottom of my bag and that's that. But with the van I have to physically have the key, so there's been lots of bag dumping trying to find them.

Smoking - I'm not missing the actual nicotine or even the smoking, but I do miss the physical side of the routine, the break, the break from what I was doing to sit outside, read my book, drink my tea. My whole routine has changed since I've stopped and I'm not liking it. I am liking the not smoking though.

Running - Since I started going to the gym 3 evenings a week, I've stopped running. Whilst I very much enjoy the exercises and I can physically feel the difference and even see it in my arms and legs. I've actually put on 3 kg with it all sitting round my middle and I don't like it at all, but it's to be expected with the level of exercise I've been doing, I'm consuming more carbs and not running them off. I need to make some adjustments to my diet and start running again.

Family - We're estranged from our youngest, child 5. Just approaching our 5th year since he cut us out of his life. He's doing well and is in contact with one of his brothers, child 4 and that's all we can ask for. We haven't seen child 3 for almost a year now as he's in Australia and of course there's Stephanie missing from our lives every single day from which there is nothing we can do about, of which we have no control and can effect no change on the situation, not even on the way her death effects us some days. It's permanent, without end.

Cutlery - Missing most of the week. We took it out with us to the Three Counties as I was convinced it has been thrown away and I've been reluctant to take the 'grown up' cutlery out the draw in case I lost that also. It turned up on top of the microwave where I'd put it to keep it safe.

Coffee - Half a cup was missing. This is a constant battle for me. Why use such large cups if they've got no intention of filling them more than 2/3rds. This was from the theatre on Wednesday night and cost £3.80 and wasn't that nice either.

Sleep - with the football, visitors, a late night at the theatre, a new role in work and a stressful environment anyway, plus most of the above, there is never enough sleep for me. I'm asleep by 11pm most nights and I will sleep through to 5am, but it's not enough and it's often disturbed. Peter has been sleeping a couple of nights in the back room when he's stayed up to watch the football and I've gone to bed around 9pm and I've slept much better, through to the alarm at 6.15am.