It was hard waking up to an empty house on Tuesday morning after such a busy weekend. We really missed the dog this week, although it was nice not to have to get up at 5am for toilet training, but I did miss the morning walks, not the night time ones as much.
Every morning I sit at the mirror and brush my hair and put face cream on. On Wednesday I flicked the light switch above the mirror for the first time. I froze. The last time I put that light on was 9 weeks ago to the day to put make up on the day of Stephanie's funeral, the last time I wore make up. I've put make up on since then and turned the light on, but that first time was a trigger for me, just something so normal.
Wednesday and Thursday I was in a lot of pain with my gall bladder, it seems to be triggered by eating chocolate, so I know what to do.
351 Monday Busy morning in work. We had our Christmas party in Alternative Provision. I had 3 extra students join us that I mentor and a TA joined us to help up. Washing up left till the morning. Home to spend a couple of hours with grandson before he went home. They took Bailey back with them. Peter and I went for coffee, home for dinner, some tidying, hoovering and washing, then evening in front of the TV.
352 Tuesday Beds stripped, washing machine on. B12 jabs, work, then off to visit a friend to drop off Christmas gift, home briefly and back out for coffee with work colleagues, home at 7.30pm. Toy room tidied, beds remade, bath and bed.
353 Wednesday Awake at 3.30am, really windy outside, sat and read and dozed back to sleep. Full day in work, student reviews. I then met up with my friend for our weekly coffee in Caffè Nero. Secret Santa took place during form time.
354 Thursday Walked to work. Took my students down to the learning base and joined in with a student leaving party. Peter collected me and dropped me at the retail park where I met up with my student from last year and her mum for a coffee and a natter.
355 Friday Last day of term, took the car to work, dismantled the Christmas tree and decorations, chucked everything in the boot to sort another day. Off to the nail bar, then to the pub to meet my colleague Nick (and the IT dept) for a couple of drinks. Home, showered and dressed up for a night out. Picked up two friends, well Peter did and he collected us all after one or two drinks too many.
When I got home we opened all our Christmas presents as we're away next week.
356 Saturday Slept till after 8am, managed to throw a cup of tea all over me so lie in ended abruptly. Tidied up the mess in the lounge from last night. Met my former student and her mum for coffee. Peter went down to visit his mum. I did some tidying and spent the afternoon on the sofa watching TV.
357 Sunday Up early and off for a walk up the Malvern Hills, it snowed. We had coffee in town and walked home. I popped out to buy some toiletries, friend called in to get cat feeding instructions and I started packing for holiday and did the washing and watched TV.
Books read this week: See them run - Marion Todd
Words written towards book: 0
Clothes bought: Dress, trousers, blouse, top - New Look £66 Cardigan - M&S £35 (Christmas money spent)
On the blog this week: Missed opportunities since Stephanie died
Things that made me happy this week:
Coffees with friends, end of term, Christmas activities with work both in and out of school, Christmas nails, grandson, sunrise, new decorations from former student.
Oh no! That's a shame you don't have the dog with you, it sounds like she kept you busy. I hope you gall bladder behaves over Christmas. That's no fun not being able to eat chocolate.
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I hope you have a nice Christmas. x
Grief triggers can be such ordinary things and there are so many unexpected firsts that come along. Sorry to hear you've been in pain with your gall bladder, hope you are feeling better now. Sounds like you had a busy last week at work. Nice to have a bit of snow. I hope going away over Christmas will be helpful for you. Thinking of you all and sending much love as you navigate this first Christmas without Stephanie x
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