I'm sitting here at my desk having spent the morning entertaining different people as they quote for our house move on Thursday, I feel sick, I have a huge knot in the tummy and the only thing that's stopping the tears from flowing is there is a guy here removing the stained glass panels from doors and windows for repair after various door slamming incidents and the odd fight amongst the kids.
I don't want to move, I shouldn't have to move, I'm so pissed off that I'm struggling to put it all in words.
When we moved here we knew nothing, knew no one and got no help...'yeah and...' I hear you say.
Well think about how you'd go about moving house in the UK, utilities, broadband, insurance, removal firms etc, etc and then come to a country where everything you've ever known is done completely differently.
For example How do you go about changing your electric and water supply from one house to another?...take the readings, call it through on the phone....here you have to cancel one contract, take out another, pay a new deposit and all this takes 3 hours, in person because you're not the named tenant of the property and your visa says visitor, so they won't discuss details with you.
Unless you've ever made an expat move you'll not understand how alone I feel right now, how pissed off I am and why I'm on the verge of tears all the time.
Hubby doesn't understand either, because I actually get things done, I battle through the tears and the frustration, but it doesn't get any easier to manage or to do.
This is my 4th move in 18 months. Out of our house into temporary accomodation in the UK for 6 weeks, arrival in South Africa to temporary accomodation for 6 weeks, and we move out of this house where we've been for 15 months into, what will hopefully be our last move for a few years, on thursday.
In the meantime I'm surveying the damage around me, half packed boxes, can't find anything, still having to do the normal day to day stuff.
It's not my fault we are in this situation it is the companies for messing up the first time around.
I think I'm going to check into a hotel till Friday and give them the bloody bill.